I love the programs on my phone and Facebook that show the memories of the last few years as documented through my pictures and posts on Facebook. I continue to be amazed at how many times significant events will happen on the same days spread over the years.
Today is one of the most significant days in my life as it marks the 11th anniversary of adopting Grace. I wish the video in my mind of that day could be shared. Grace was so cute and young and carrying this huge stuffed dog and I was so confident I knew what I was doing that I'm sure that anyone watching was quite amused. But every single day I am reminded how grateful I am that this day occurred.
For us, today will also mark a significant day for both girls. They drove to school on their own after they dropped me off at work. And then they came back to get me. For me, this is huge.
I'm not sure I can explain just how significant this is, but when you adopt older kids, you have missed so many developmental moments. You weren't there for all those years that most new parents document daily. If I try to enumerate them all, I know I will start crying, so I look past that and thankful for the years I have. And I try to remember carefully significant steps of their becoming adults.
Anyway, both girls were extremely independent when I adopted them. They led us through parts of China I am pretty sure they had never seen, but were convinced they knew better than we did. They were used to doing things on their own and taking care of themselves. Eventually though that changed and they were comfortable with me taking charge and leading the way.
I got used to that. I liked being the one driving, picking up, dropping off. I liked knowing where they were and how they got there and that they would get home safely no matter how far they roamed. But of course that had to change. When it was time, they went to drivers training school and while we waited a little longer than we had to, they both passed their driving test. The goal during their junior year was to have them drive with me in the car and get used to doing the drive. There just never seemed to be the right time or day. In fact the whole year passed without that happening.
So getting ready for their senior year, I knew I had to let go, more, although it hasn't been easy. I paid for them a reserved parking space but again, there just didn't seem to be the right time or day to let them do that, until Saturday. Grace, being very careful with how she approached it, suggested that she could drive herself to school on Saturday for the International Festival. OK. Ugh. Right. Why is being the parent so hard and why can't they stay in middle school? When did this happen? And why do I always have to be the adult?
I hate to admit, but this was one of the hardest things I've done, letting go. She made it fine in spite of some rain and not having her co-pilot, Annabel, who was at work. I felt like this was not a true test though because the route to their school has a lot of morning and afternoon commuters and not so much on the weekends.
Today though, my boss had scheduled a meeting at the exact time I needed to be there to pick them up. I got encouragement from another mom who told me that sometimes it takes something like this to force us to make that leap and so I held my breath and went for it.
OK, we all survived and so on this anniversary of our interdependence from the date of adoption to a day of independence, for both, this will always be an important day for me.